Fatigue sweeps across me
I awake tired
its down hill from there
so tired
all I can do is either push
or lay awake
my brain
the first computer
tic tok
the ifs
the whys
the if onlys
I push regret away
its no use
brain plays in the obtuse
I rest there
watching
colour, perfume, behaviour
the birds have a ton of energy
alive with blossom
grumpy fuckers with each other
territory
ownership
survival
I lay back
watch it all
upside down am I
dream the dream
imagine
what it must be like to fly
