Daisy watering

my heart fell

smashed into a million daisy flowers at my feet

diagnoses steals the sleep from me

needed sleep

yet even in that space dis ease keeps the rest

In the ink black night

gentle battle lines are being drawn

in the quiet silent screams ring forth

tock tock goes the fucked clock

10 more years will make you 15

20 more years

and 25 is the number

I wonder if it was fare of me to be so selfish to keep you 

I could not have made another choice

and this time

this now

is golden despite

tears are rolling

I say get them out of me

let them go

the ink black silence my witness

my handkerchief

the only witness to daisy's being watered

Ive fought so many battles

so often my sabre has rattled

I'm preparing

sitting with daisy dotted ink black

putting back together

matching each crack

I focus on you

my gorgeous creature

this bodies managed to brew

and keep

and keep 

feel the love

the mother love

deep

deep

The bucket list is here and now

roll and rock

as only I know how

and turn and use this

for the better of us

hold your hand

run free

you and me

be gone dis ease

I want not

not 

please not add to my lot

drag this shell around

hear no sea

I see no me

I see you

but not me

I pitty you son

you have me

sinking down

you I shall not weight

you are to fly above

all of the fate

learn son that life is not cheap

hold my hand son

close your eyes

don't see me weep

I mend my heart

fill the cracks with gold

forge it all back

refuse to be sold

on ideas of doom

I give the universe the finger

fuck you fates

where has time gone

46 years

in reality ive only lived for 6

oh plan come to me

come compass to my mind

I'm the captain of crisis

with no fucking direction

back to bed I shall go soon

hold him

watch him sleep

take tissues for my issues

and love

as fast as I can

fast as I can