exes cause stresses

I will never forget

the tang of regret

hearing you had nothing to offer me

 

I was slightly bemused

even confused

the silence that deafened me

 

a hand on my shoulder

to give me room to grow older

was all I wished it to be

 

no marching arm in arm

to disable life's harm

 was expected of that I am sure

 

but you turned your back

images can crack

but I didn't want help, did you know?

 

just a smile

just a brew

small things would do

 

but no

hard to hear

when silence shouts fear

 

so on I go without knowing

and who talks first

im unsure, tired of quirks, to hurt for second guessing

 

out of energy am I

out of tears to cry

but love you I still and will do

 

and forgive yes indeed

forget I don't think

that the last thing I needed was another problem

 

coping was I, just about

with all that had come about

and then I had another worry to juggle inside

 

no friend for tea

no good night to me

and alone I was truly once more

 

take care of my son

no name, not even for fun

and I saw enough to understand

 

and grateful am I

for you doing it so

for I know now I did it all alone

 

so pick up the phone

we are never alone

just older and wiser I feel

 

and I am not him

but she is my version of he

and I handled it all very differently

 

but then I am me

and you are you

and tissues not issues I am through and through

 

ive worked it at speed

I did what I need

and this issue is the only one left undealt

 

true love I have

makes me think im very mad

as im still here thinking of you

 

but my life is fuller

and never duller

when thinking not watching you