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I guess here is as good as anywhere

all started here any hows is how I think

 

I been the best ive ever been this last year

the kindest

the most thoughtful

bout any person ever

 

not my mother

not my sister

not the great list of friends ive had the pleasure of meeting

 

I learned from them all

even my son

and it all cooked in me

and I gave it

all I had

to you

 

its ok

it wasn't enough

I don't even have to think

just accept that it is how it is

 

we tried

and that's all that matters

and im grateful

 

you did what you had

what you needed

I respect that

like I said

accept that

 

I know your alright

maybe have taken a lil bitty fright

that aint me

im a reacher

im lucky
cos I know myself
I know true love now
and its ok
to let it pass you by
im a survivor thriver

im still here
for you
when you have worked your way out of the stew
im not the same person though
less patient
less willing

I may not do for you
id put money on that
I could be wrong

im not a naughty boy
who need more
just a little joy
truth no decoy

I wish you just much luck and happiness
success in all your endeavours
if you want me
you know where I am
door never closes
but effort you will need
strength
to want it
to want me
to want us

I know that's frightening stuff
truly I know
all I can think of
is touching your toes
moonlight glows
all the good stuff we shared

ill hang on to it like that
I wont sully it with all the crap
I hold my hand up
I shoulder my lot
time to write
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