alone

alone

I had to use the phone

could of used some peppy talk

exhausted being own cheerleader

 

but im alone

and they do there best

but I understand

that self support

is my own test

 

there is no tenderness

in this day

thirsty I am

but I guess its ok

 

is it too much for them?

I don't know

my pain has passed 10

 

and I wonder about options for an out

im so far past

a simple scream and shout

 

im hurt

within this shirt

hurt

 

id move mountains

for friends

where's this got me? 

 

here

alone

in a place

I no longer call home

 

the table is cleared

I gobble scraps

off the floor

 

I know my place

safe

under the table

 

if I can see

there feet

when they swing towards me

I can retreat

 

ive reached out

but I wont pollute them

no room

 

so

I go quiet

 

 

silent

 

no comfort

they let me do it all alone

I understand

 

yeah

I understand

 

hurts

 

I lay here

face down

in the dirt

 

not a single hand

 

ill take the tent

ill take the car

ill take my son

 

and we shall go far

 

but they and them

and me alone

I don't know how I cope

hurt

alone

 

and I know

I would never

leave alone

a friend

like me

 

but I cope

always have

 

and when im done

rebuilt my life

back to fun

and all things bright

 

ill know

that I was left

all alone

full of pain

left to suffer

alone