forgotton

 

 

mother was busy

daddy was drunk

sister a student

I was a flunk

 

alone I stood

and alone I stand

with my little boy

to hold this hand

 

defiant and thirsty I remain

for everyday I feel the abandonment of pain

 

and I look at the trees

and there always here for me

and I look at the birds

who visit daily

 

and I ask nothing of them

but permanence

don't leave me tree

don't leave me bird

without you all

im obsolete

absurd

 

I live a life

putting others first

a higher life

short of purse

when I think of self

it all goes wrong

put the cd on

loose myself in a song

 

in my heart

I climb this mountain every

day

stutter along

not sure of just what to say

 

so I go quiet

disappointed in self

re-write the chapter

find the spot on the shelf

in self

 

its not about any one else

guess I need to change

be more selfish

more insular

isolated

 

its not the way I want life to be

but seems if I give

the world will take all of me

 

so day organise yourself

im off dancing with an elf

down the steps I shall go

to the river at the bottom

and leave all my feelings there

to be forgotton