itch for a week

hurriedly I got up

and gathered my few possessions

 

how I hate to leave these verdant spaces

luxurious I recline

softly supported

 

how I hate to leave

 

I want to stay so much

I want to experience the mundane here

feel the rhythm of our day

share the simple things

the ebb and flow of life

 

a year ago

I would have given much for where we are now

the more you give

the more I yearn for

 

I ask myself "do I want too much?"

I calm myself in this new domain

"be grateful, be thankful for what is now"

 

I want shared projects

I want shared meals

I want to be a shoulder

a problem solver helper

 

I don't what to miss a moment

im concerned im loosing myself

I find that im more myself than ever

than ever before

 

so lost in the beauty

the happiness

I think not of landings

but of the flying

 

of hand dancing

of giggles chancing

of simple romancing

 

i wrote of bringing you to my parched lips

ive drunk for months now

still i find myself thirst

 

comfort comes

knowing

i am ok

a smile comes

knowing

we are more than ok

 

the fears stir

frighten to share the depth

fear that you turn away

that in me is too much

too much for you

 

i swat it away

fears take minute bites of me

i can either itch for a week

or apply an antidote

 

i want to be self contained

i find i no longer am

was i ever?

i am strong

i am strong

 

i just never want to leave

as i type

my bosom heaves

i look down

where earlier your hand sat

and electric ran between our poles

did you feel it?

i find it still hard to believe it

i  find it hard to believe it

 

real you are

and I too

and no matter how i examine myself

i find our love

is

true