numbers

they camped liked strangers

couldn't even pitch the same way

nothing was parallel

chaperone required

 

un needed fear

used

truth pierced her

all precious

sensitive

trust less

 

eyes met once I think

swimming miles

accidentally I looked

2 smiles dived water wards

 

it was like being slapped

by both really

but I am used to numbers

im used to being against the masses

 

yes im strong

I said more than once

strong minded

yes

I am

I have had no other choice

life has been like this

I wasn't always intense

nor dynamic with opinion

but stand

and say yes that is me

I do

 

I always wanted not to be

wanted to be softer

tender

able to be more vulnerable

 

but where does this get one?

picked off by numbers

living in superficial passivity

scared

 

I understand fear

learnt to just go through it

scared?

well once you have been so scared you think it will kill you

and survived

it isn't so scary

 

I was bullied by many

and I never worried

nor cared for it

when a person needs back up

well

just makes me shake my head

even when that one has shared my bed

 

and if that one

needed support for other life

communication

earlier

would have stopped the strife

 

many things am I

unreasonable

I rarely am

keep me in the dark

and I don't grow into a fun guy

 

friendship

you had it all

held my hand

jumped off the cliff

stood silent

watched me fall

 

I wouldn't

couldn't

do that too a friend

those that stay

stay for life

those that don't

waved off

wished much luck

forgotten about

within the pages of

my book